All This Time (Foster Jen)

Won't you please tell me just where you're going I'm on edge with this uncertainty I know I have made it hard to get to know me It's terrifying - you may not like what you see And I know that you would love to break me down But some things are just too hard to talk about All this time I've been lyin', been lyin' to you So afraid that you'd leave me if you knew the truth All this time I've been tryin' to reach out to you All this time I've been lyin', where you goin', where you goin'? Please don't leave, I never meant to hurt you I'm just locked up in this solitary pain I learned young that keeping secrets is a virtue What happened to me - I can't bring myself to say And I know that if I say it, it is true And I'm scared that you would leave me if you knew All this time I've been lyin', been lyin' to you So afraid that you'd leave me if you knew the truth All this time I've been tryin' to reach out to you All this time I've been lyin', where you goin', where you goin'? As you leave I say a quiet prayer for mercy One more time, just turn around and look at me And as I pray, you say you never would desert me "In fact, come with me - I was just going out for groceries." And the stars fade out in the sky tonight And the dawn breaks in and spreads the light