As I Close My Eyes (Inborn Suffering)

Alone, forlorn in silence Nothing left to me But your memory As I close my eyes, as my soul withers The bitter taste of deceit For all that's untold This waste of love, a wound in my heart The grace of your body, imaginary lost The pale distance Devours me from within When shadows are no more And the river stops bleeding The throne of my dead illusions My monument of pain Is your masterpiece My soul bleed it's black delusions In a flowing torrent of hate And all that you were revives As I close my eyes Doomed to my existence Joy swept away The mirage vanished Behind a darkened sky Hear my cry as I've witnessed The fading of your memory This agony inside my soul As I lay myself to rest So I throw myself to death I drown As I close my eyes