A Natural

Whipping Boy

Today is not a good day for me, for today I found out I 
was mad,
as I have discovered this in the last 45 minutes my 
madness is 
still new, fresh in my mind so to say, so I can 
understand it 
more. It has come to my attention that over the past 
year and a 
half I have acquired a condition known as acute 
paranoid 
schizophrenia in relation to everyone and everything I 
did. It 
gradually worsened through the year to this point of 
realisation 
that I have a twin mind.

And in the intervening time I consumed with a passion 
various 
things to keep the main side happy, and as the main 
side grew 
hungrier quicker, and if it wasn't fed each time, it 
began to 
eat the other.

Distrust of everything, it ran in the family, at least 
on my 
mothers side. There was too much trust in the other. I 
am it's 
eldest offspring and I too have distrust too much. 
That's why I 
don't want children. Each person has their own tragedy, 
mine as 
I found out was this fear of my old lady turning into 
the very 
same old lady that I despised when I grew up.

But you fall in love and is it possible to fall in love 
with 
every woman you meet, you just stand there with your 
mouth open, 
thinking wishing I never existed. But this is my time 
and the 
girl I just met should be here 'cause here was a woman 
who held 
me and did not copy my every move, she just let it 
happen, never 
asked, but I answered for I myself am heaven and hell.

Today is not a day for me
Today is not for me