The Diamond Ring

Adair

I'll peel back the skin from my head 
Let the sun melt you from my memory 
I'll drink myself to sleep and escape 
The nightmares of being awake. 
I'll set the air afire. 
You never even tried to tell me 
What went wrong, what went wrong. 
In this train wreck that we built together 
What went wrong, what went wrong. 

Under shaking skin, underneath it all. 
Kill me from within. Kill me, kill me. 

You said always. 
Say you will, pretend to care. 
Say you will be there 
Always. 
Say you will, pretend to care. 
Say you will be there 

Always. 

Steal my breath, taint the air. 
Every bone in my body's been broken 
And my life is a jaw wired shut, 
My voice is my curse and my shelter from the pain 
And I'm breathing carbon just to fall 
Asleep at night. Asleep at night. 
In this train wreck that we built together 
Nothing's right, nothing's right.

I'm teething.
I'm cutting gums for the first time. 

Under shaking skin, underneath it all. 
Kill me from within. Kill me, kill me. 

You said always. 
Say you will, pretend to care. 
Say you will be there 
Always. 
Say you will, pretend to care. 
Say you will be there 

You said always.

You're stabbing my heart. 

Broken hearts, broken doors. 
Dying on a hotel floor. 
Because of a small black box you couldn't receive. 
I'll drive you home tomorrow in silence. My sister will return it. 

This is the end of the summer, and the beginnings of the fall. 
You'll leave me two months later. In an airport goodbye. 
And as the weeks go on the letters and the phone calls decrease. 
Ah, to fade from memory. 

So keep the punches coming: 
left,right,right,left,left. 
Kick the throat you used to kiss.
Push face into concrete.  
A smile, a giant fist. 
The bloody face of bliss. 
And as I gasp for my last breath, 
I crawl back into your perfect poison arms.